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Moon

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Lalo-San

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Waking in someone else’s bed

Can’t say it feels strange or different , it feels unorthodox sometimes but other times it feels the same as being home, I wish to hold her hand before she leaves and make her stay for a few more minutes , I’d like to hold her before I have to wait hours before I see her again

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My favorite Russian.

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Decisions

There comes a time in our lives when we must decide.

Leave , vacate , ignore it or laugh, but you cannot hide

A lot of things are not meant to be because thats what life can be

no one said it would be easy, and thats what they told me

And yet the more I convince myself to keep going and decide.

I want to change my mind to hide, not come out , I’m gone I died

I dont want to know I dont want to feel or see

am I important to anyone I am I really doing this for me

Make up your mind , come through and finally decide.

but I cannot I tell them I rather say I didn’t then say yes and lie

I am a person, I crawl with mistakes , I leak out uncertainty you see

now looking back I wish I had changed my mind , but no matter, I am who I am

And that’s all I can be.

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just-another-dream-wasted-on-you:

and the sad thing is, I’ll look for you in everyone else.

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Disambiguation

A temperate season, creates darkness earlier in our everyday lives

It changes my mood it brings me sadness, it chokes you 

With a tight grip around your neck like shadow chains that wont let go

But is it autumn or is it the sudden change from heat to cold

September Equinox that brings me Pain.


Blasted seasons why must you change, can I blame you ?

Should I blame myself? I am sorry that last year wasn’t pleasant

I didnt enjoy you, I did not venture out and step on the crisp leafs 

and fall in a bundle and lay for a while, I didnt search for white skies.

September Equinox that brings me Sorrow.


But I do appreciate you being for me here again great season

great time of fire and red blood , with hint of the power of the yellow sun

and combination of fascination and creativity of the color orange presented with

leafs that fall from the trees, celebration around the corner and yet…

September Equinox that brings me Thoughts


Here you are again to remind me that another year will pass by

that this is reality and that time waits for noone, the cold and frigid truth

as cold as the air becomes when you arrive. I will never forget and you will be

my greatest witness, for when I pick up a leaf when I am far older and wiser 

I will also be able to smile knowing that it is still green. 

September Equinox that brings me Clairvoyance

Mindful Darkness: Somber

mindfuldarkness:

I’ve become somber

Amidst the drift in the morning

I’m starting to float away

My words

Did they crush you?

My heart

Did it melt you?

It’s caught in November

I’m holding you closer

I’m holding you closer,

Caught in November

I don’t want to let go

I’ll never let you go

I’m lost in your…

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i am

therecessivegene:

just broken glass
see through my jagged edges
transparent

clean up the mess if you like,
I’m still shattered.
still wine stained
blood red
with the memory of your tainted lips.

don’t bother,
after all
glass can’t get hurt. 

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